Starting fresh

I think before the new year I need to make a list of goals that i really seriously want to accomplish.

I deleted all my old posts because I want to start fresh.

A new year is starting soon and I really want to better myself.

Today I had a thought, what if I never find anything that i'm good at that i want to keep doing? Everybody I have met has a dream of something they want to do in the future. Even if it is simply unattainable, I think it is amazing that they have such wonderful dreams.

Barrett knows what he wants to do with his t shirt company. He has a vision that is really respectable. I admire all his efforts and all his work ethic. Even if he thinks that he is slackin on it. I know he is going to go further with it. I can just tell how passionate he feels about it. It's not just something that he does on the side. It's something he wants to turn into a career. It's such a good dream. Its so great to me that anybody can have that kind of ambition to do something and actually try hard to follow through with it. I believe he has just the right mindset and the actual artistic talent to really make it happen. And I really hope I'm still around when it does happen. (www.tularehouse.com)

Josh wants to be a band manager of his band Monsters in the city. I really adore how much time and money and effort he puts into this band. Although I do believe they're gonna seriously go big because they have a really good sound and are somewhat poppy (even though i know he would be butt hurt that I say that). Seriously, I think they're gonna be pretty big. Yuppy little boppy girls in high school love that kinda sound. haha. jk. But seriously I saw his books on band management in his car. They're like 200 pages a book. And I know he'll go far with this stuff because he's got the kind of personality that always looks on the bright side. And I feel like people like that can't ever go wrong with what they want to do. (www.myspace.com/monstersinthecity)

Btw, all the guys in monsters in the city have got so much talent its almost intimidating to be around them. Cameron (guitarist) is just such a cool guy that has such good taste in music. Andy (bassist) is just very artistic and has a good eye for photos and such. And mark (drummer) is just an all around great musician and i love his covers and he is definitely gonna go big and make his own album and its gonna be cool when i can say i totally smoked a blunt with that guy. lol. (please don't let my love of marijuana discredit my thoughts in this post)

And last but not least Diana. I believe she is by far the most amazing person I know. She has had so much working against her. Like the KGB. haha. jk. but seriously she is going to go far. I always see it in people like her. She has so much potential to do so good in the world. But she can't use her full potential because her dad likes to hold her back from growing into an adult. I hope she goes far with her photography because damn her pictures were amazing. I really hope she does something serious with that even if it is just on the side. I can tell she has such a good eye for that shit. She is somebody I want to keep in my life and never let fail. I know if I just keep encouraging her to stand up to her dad and to finish school I know it will happen. We continuously have this conversation about finishing school so we can move on with our lives. And I always hear it in her voice that she's going to find herself and move onto do something spectacular. She inspires me to make myself a better person and to not be so serious about everything and I think I do the same for her.

All these people move me and make me want to find a goal to accomplish. So here goes a list of things I want accomplish for 2010:
-find a career that i will stick with that I can actually love.
(I do not want to stick around mimi's cafe forever)
-take at least 4 classes a semester.
-be more healthy and take better care of my body.
-smoke less cigarettes eventually quit.
-pay off credit cards and get rid of old debts. (don't forget I still owe jamie $9)
-pay off school bills.
-find a place of my own to call home.
-make sure i don't disappoint anybody anymore.
-and buy a vespa. haha.

I think that is a bunch of goals that slowly but surely I can finish.

love always...