Not very pretty at all
Not lately.
I know I should always feel like I am beautiful just because I hate feeling so self loathing, but lately I feel like nobody tells me or anything to reassure me.
I don't have the prettiest smile, I am not skinny at all, I don't have the best complexion, I don't have the biggest boobs, I don't have pretty hair, I don't have long beautiful eyelashes, My nails aren't pretty, I have man toes, I have stretch marks in places I don't want them, I have scars all over my body, my socks never match... I am just not beautiful.
I can always tell i'm not when i take pictures. I mean yeah, i'm not photogenic whatsoever, but next to somebody else is when i notice my flaws.
It's when I feel most ugly, and lately I just don't feel pretty at all. It makes me feel so sad sometimes.
When I was younger I thought I could grow up and become beautiful, but i guess it's not always the case. I thought I could grow up and look and feel like a princess, but now that i'm older I just feel like i'm never gonna be beautiful.
I'm not a megan fox or a rosario dawson and it makes me sad that i will never come close to being as pretty or as eye catching.
Well i gotta get to work. time to go fake a smile.
peace
p.s. basically this is how i feel today.
1 comment:
Jess.
I love you. I love your hair, your toes, your boobies! everything.
You are one of my best friends. it hurts me to hear this. you are everything that makes you, YOU! i wouldnt like you any other way. You are a beautiful person inside and out. Seriously. Remember that, next time you feel bad.
P.s. I compare my self to other girls too much. more than anyone needs to.
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